Daily Dose Of Life

Journal Entry: Sat Aug 9, 2008, 9:49 AM
   

• Mood: Artistic
• Listening to: Colective Soul - The World I Know
• Reading: www.kalay86.blogspot.com
• Watching: LoST

so so, 
the internet was done when i got home..
hmm that was around 9pm,
and it just got back and it already 1AM.

and….
boredom sunked in

so heres what i got so far

An empty room
An empty bed
A hope that someday
I can find someone to share them with

A lonely soul
A broken faith
A hope that one of these days
I’ll find what I have been missing

The words that was left unsaid
The actions that was left undone
Missing something that wasnt there
Something that wasnt mine

Someday I guess
Someday I might
See your face again
See if your hand fit the spaces between mine

so whats this all about? 
bwhahahahhahahahaha

hi guys! i havent been here for years now.. =)
i have move all my post at this site,
so if you have the time, you can actually check it out!
open to PUBLIC View

http://kalay86.blogspot.com/

"nya sa tan-awn nimo kalay mag dugay mo?"

i was asked this question yesterday dat i find so hard to answer. i was caught with the sad reality that we will never work. the situation that i have with him will never go somewhere. it was a slap in my face that says wake up! and i decided to face reality thou i know it’ll hurt. its either i continue what i feel for him knowing that he dont see me the way i see him and be hurt or move on and be hurt. not much of an option really. no matter what i choose i know ill be hurt. i said to myself before that im not settling less with what we have because i am contented but i never was. its painful to admit that i did settle for less he cant give me what i wanted but i decided to stay in that situation just for the sake of having him. just for the thought that i was love.

..indeed one of da best outing eber! hehe team tekken team bldg held last july 24-25, 2007 @ Portofino Beach Resort.. almost everyone was there! it was a fun day.. as in! and i was with him.. lols! weeeeeee lifay au c manang, maski nawala ang id! hahay…
but anyways, lifay ko….. weeeeeee as in!

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KARLA
0550PM

..h0w can i stand hiR with u w/o being m0ved by y0u?

071507 / 1144PM

i dont know what to do nor know what to speak.. how to act and how to feel.. i went out with this guy one time and now im totally into him.. well, into him in a sense that i cant stop thinking about him.. i always think about his kisses and stuff.. but what made it complicated is that he has a girlfriend and i know for a fact his so inlove with the girl.. how complicated is that? made me ask myself, am i just a one night thing? that after the next morning id become a nobody again.. after months staying away from guys and avoiding for this whole love crap thing im back in this mess.. a night full of fun with a person i just met turns out id find the person i thought id never be again.. he manage to sweep me off my feet and had found my weakness.. and now im so weak.. fighting whats not worth it from the start.. i cant believe id be spending sleepless nights just thinking about this guy who offered his handkerchief which i misunderstood him offering his love.. i had a rough night lastnight, we sort of talk about "US" and he got to ask me why i had fallen for him.. and told him about the handkerchief thingy, know what he said "i would do that to anyone, i would ever offer my seat to the elderly" see how stupid i could get? when he said lets talk about us i told him what is there to talk about.. theres no US to start with.. he said that i like you as a friend or more than that, im a little bit confuse you know how madly inlove i am with my girlfriend.. i cried.. how did i got myself into this mess.. how could i even hope he’d feel the same way.. maybe im just that stupid.. i offered to stay away, to delete everything that bridges us.. but he refuses to agree with me staying away.. he said it was pointless because he’d always stay no matter what because where friends.. now, i cant hardly miss a minute without thinking of him.. text him.. send him non-sense msgs.. i know he gets irritated about me always bugging him.. i know id be such pain in the ass sometimes, thats why i requested last night to him.. that i hope that no matter how silly i could get or how much stupid i could get i wish he would be extra patient with me and understand what im going through.. and i promised him that i would do my best to forget about us.. i will.. someday.. O.o
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Written by: KARLA 12:29am

weeeeeeeeeee..

nka human jud town ko sa eruf training! sus da oder day abi nko d ko mka human kai minatay au ko atong adlawa sa laag nmo pag july 10, ddto paseo.. nyak nyak!

atot nlng!

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KARLA

7:49pm

weeeeeeeeeee..

nka human jud town ko sa eruf training! sus da oder day abi nko d ko mka human kai minatay au ko atong adlawa sa laag nmo pag july 10, ddto paseo.. nyak nyak!

atot nlng!

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KARLA

7:49pm

sunday.. hmmm bored! so mao toh laag mi ni clarice ganina.. ddto mi ayala, tan-aw mi Fantastic 4.. hehe den laroy2x kadjot.. chika2x sa mga kahitaboan nko esp last friday.. ddto mi paseo.. tamby! i think last laag nlng to namo, kie buwagon na amo wave.. paetz au! chaonx.. ari lng ko taman oiz kie tog nako! its almost 2am.. nyt!

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KARLA

1:48am

yesterday was last day for product training.. it was fun.. ddto pud mi sa kartzone..hehe dghan au pix ! like 100.. hehe nxt week kai nesting na nmo.. dwat nami og cols.. chaonx nlng.. ambrot if makaya ba ni.. kayanon! hehe

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KARLA

6:42pm